Recently I have been having a hard time writing. I feel like I once had a very strong voice and now it feels thin, quiet. It isn’t a bad feeling, just new. Like something is changing.
There is definitely a lot of changes happening right now. We are slowly but surly finding ourselves in the warmer season. Winter was brutal in so many ways. But the days are getting warmer and longer. We are spending most of our free time wandering and exploring outside. Taking photos and sharing stories. It is what we do.
The baby is growing so much. She is sitting now. She almost always has a huge smile on her face. She can light up the darkest of days with her gummy grin and her laugh. Oh that laugh!
Elsa is no longer a baby. Or a toddler. She is a little kid with an enormous heart. She wants to learn about everything and asks the very best questions. She is like a sponge and is absorbing the world around her.
She adds to her “Elsa-isms” almost daily. Her newest is “light saver.” It is what she calls her small plastic toy lightsaber. I corrected her once then realized that “light saver” was amazing and stopped myself from doing it again.
I am studying to become a peer counselor with Breastfeeding USA. It is something I am very passionate about. It became incredibly clear that Elsa shares my enthusiasm today while at a breastfeeding support meeting.
We were going around introducing ourselves and our babies. When it was our turn I let my very articulate child introduce herself.
“Hi, I am Elsa and I am four-and-a-half years old. This is my sister Aria, she is zero years old. This is my baby [a doll], Mittens. She is breastfed but is just learning how to latch. I was pumping for her and feeding her with a bottle because she had a tongue tie. But, we fixed it so now she is learning.”
Have I mentioned that the baby has also learned how to snuggle? So far I am mainly the primary recipient of the hugs and I couldn’t be more elated. This tiny girl gives giant hugs.
Although the calendar year began months ago, this time of year always feels like it should be the beginning. I have taken this changing of the seasons to do a lot of introspection. I am trying to really become my most authentic self. To either embrace my flaws or change them. I am doing some serious work on me. I have had to let go of relationships that didn’t feel supportive or healthy and really work on the ones that nourish and enrich my life and my soul. I am building a community of people who make me want to do and be better. I am surrounding myself with some beautiful people. I am building my tribe. I am trying to live a life I love with the people I love the most.
This post was part of the Fly On The Wall writing challenge brought to you by the creative genius that is Baking In A Tornado. Every month a group of bloggers all write posts consisting of small snippets that, on their own, are not enough to write an entire post. They end up being as if you were a fly on the walls of our lives.
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